in which nothing but fall will change my world.

positives:
1. on sunday, I got a $1,000 scholarship because I am a good/great writer which makes me feel much better/more secure in my life in general.
2. weekend forcast: cold cold cold oh yeah maybe snow?
3. pumpkin banana bread/carrot cake muffins
4. first story workshopped in class
5. LOST marathons/late night cups of coffee

negatives:
1. the ole navy
2. mysterious blown fuses
3. slowly dwindling bank account
4. first story workshopped in class
4a. I don't know where to go with said story from this point
5. very tired of reading about Marxism


I can't seem to give up biting my fingernails. it is a habit & a hobby of mine; it alternately disgusts & delights me. I was doing so well because I was compulsively painting my fingernails on a daily basis and I have a fear of having shit on my teeth. then my fingernails got really brittle and creepy and yellow around the edges and so I stopped. I think it is an addiction that will plauge me for the rest of my life. any suggestions are welcome except constantly wearing mittens--that is just silly.

I have been feeling very spiritual as of late. maybe it's the 5+ cups of coffee. maybe it's some divine hand. In all honesty I'd prefer the latter.